“I DECLARE I am special and extraordinary. I am not average! I have been custom-made. I am one of a kind. Of all the things God created, what He is the most proud of is me. I am His masterpiece, his most prized possession. I will keep my head held high, knowing I am a child of the most high God, made in His very image. This is my declaration.” - Joel Osteen

silver lining

it was eons ago since i blogged here. i’ve gone through a lot on those months. i have learned to prioritize and to fight for my dreams. i studied hard;as much as i could. there were times that i dont even sleep just to study for quizzes and exams in our Accounting subject. I rarely go to barkada outings. i really wanted to be a CPA. it was my dream.  i really wanted it so bad. but then, i failed. BSA demanded more than what I could give. So I guess that’s the reason why.

Obviously, i couldnt achieve my goal anymore. at first, i was really so devastated. but after a few days, im glad i failed. it was a breath of fresh air.

 

 i enrolled in summer class. my friend was the one who added my subjects. i wanted Philosophy, Quanti, and Life and Works of Rizal. But because of the conflicts in schedule, my friend added Quanti, Marketing and English. It never crossed my mind to take Marketing in my summer class. Let’s just say, it was one of God’s surprises.

 

On the first day of class in my Marketing subject, I was able to say to myself,  “This is the reason why I had to fail. Marketing is meant for me.” I never felt such kind of happiness in attending Accounting class. I have always hated Accounting.  No sourgraping,but Marketing makes me happy. I found what really my heart desired. I’ve seen the best in me. I really  get excited whenever I attend our class. I am always motivated to study and to learn. I realized that if I didn’t fail, I will continue to be miserable for three more years. It matters a lot that you enjoy what you’re doing - that you love what you’re doing.

 

I guess that’s how God works. Sometimes he does not answer our prayers because he is redirecting our steps. He takes us in places that we’ve never thought about and gives us what we’re supposed to have. Something that gives us peace and joy. So when something unfortunate happened, do not put it in a box and label it a “bad thing” because you’ll never know better or even the best things  might come out of it. God uses our loses to gain much more.

 

Indeed, we cannot contain the wisdom of God. His ways are not our ways. We do not need to understand everything, we just have to have faith and complete trust in him. Im planning to get a minor degree in Marketing on the second semester of this upcoming school year. I will be chasing new-found heart’s desire. :)

im really sick and tired of my Accounting subject. its very frustrating. but i wont give up. i’ll try harder. 

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"Even if God seemed to have abandoned me, He was watching. Even if He seemed indifferent to my suffering, He was watching. And when I was beyond all hope of saving, He gave me rest, and gave me a sign to continue my journey."

Life of Pi (via gloriousmessintheprocess)